a dream has turn into dust

Has you ever heard a song from Regina Spektor - The Call?

I think it's about a place. (specific: my dream school)

Yeah, it started out as a feeling. I feel like, that place is great. Then it grew into a hope. I hopefully that I could go there. And the the battle just started, wich turned it into a quite though. And the day of 'do I could go there, or not' is come, then turned it into a quite word. All. Long. Day. And then that word grew louder and louder until I cried.

I have a bestfriend -wich has a same dream school- that still have a chance to get that place. And it was the very first day of us to saw into that place. And when we got to go back to home, I said, "hhh, I should say goodbye now." and we were quite for a seconds, then I said, "But you don't need to say goodbye, you should say see ya!" then she said, "don't you say that"

That's really funny to think how I still has a bunch of hope, even does I knew that it's really impossible for me to school in there. Everyone arround me said, "let it go". And so she was. She has choice another school. And I'm just. Still. Hope. For. It. Because I know I still had a chance. I mean, a little chance. A really little chance. An absolutely little chance.

And then that thursday morning. A day that Proof me, that I haven't chance anymore. Then I don't give a crap wich school that my parents choice. I just cried.

And then the day is come. A day that the very first day of school. It's a new begining. It's just a feeling that made me feel like a shit, and no one knows yet, and I still can't forget how it feels like.

PS: Secretely sometimes (with 's' at the end of the word!) the feelings or imagination or hope of me for that place is come. I don't know why. Is it because I still can't let it go? ofcourse not, I've let it go. I've already has a new dream right now. And I'd fight to get that! \m/

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This post. It's been a year too *sight*

Do you know what we got? we got nothing. Nothing of us got that place. Just. Nevermind. :'|