15 love life?

Honestly, I feel weird to write a shit like this now. But there is too much stupid girl like me that hoping for nothing. We're teens. And we thought that love life is the 'must thing to have'. But yet. It suck.

I've heard 'fifteen' song from Taylor Swift. That song is really inspired me to be careful at this age. I was trying as hell to be careful, until I heard 'Mary's Song' from Taylor Swift too. I-Damn-Want-to have a love life like that. So I start to daydreaming, guessing who's that boy that might be my prince charming. 

I keep don't get it, for what is it having a love life at teen. There's just 2 cycles of it, but really complicated. One, the crushing cycle. This is really my cycle -_-. First, you look that boy or girl that really shining. Then, you fall for him or her. And then you have the 'get to know him or her' section. And he or she respond you that well. And secretly, she or he have the 'get to know him or her' section too, BUT with the other person. In parenthesis, Not-With-You. And then he or she is dating to that girl or boy. And you broke. Suck. Two, the dating cycle. First, you got that one you loved finally love you back. Then, the 'love' thing is a temporary thing. You got a conflict. Then fighting. Then broke up. Then falling apart and feel like 'I'd rather to die'. Suck, isn't it?

See? Love life at teens are really complicated. I mean, for what are we doing a thing that just hurt our feeling? And silly me, i keep doing it. I'm a girl that just want to talk to other girl, but with no offense to the boy. Dear girls, there is so much jerks out there. Be careful.

But in other side, there's people who really did a great relationsip at teens. They found a right person for now. But we still don't know what would happen next. I hope it would be fine until they died. Amen.

P.s. I wrote these not because i'm jealous or something, but i want to open those teens eyes that fall over and over again to those boys and then broke over and over again.

Someone said that "the worst thing is not to broke at a relationsip, but the scared to fall in love is". So, i decided to like someone at this age. Not love. We're too young for that thing.

________________________________________________________________

Knowing I wrote this post is feel awkward right now. I think I'm in love with a boy. Since almost 2 years ago. I've already forgot him, since he's dating my close friend, actually. And then, he's comeback, and I think I like him. All over again. Funny when I think the very first time how I had a crush on him. :))