Berasumsi

Hmmm... Asumsi. Tepatnya sih.... Salah Asumsi. Ini bukan pertama kalinya lho aku salah asumsi terhadap seseorang. Dan seriously. Akibatnya malah ngerugiin diri sendiri :|

Post ini aku tulis berdasarkan penyesalan, dan rasa maaf.

Udah berkali-kali aku ngerasa, orang benci aku lah... orang ngerasa keganggu sama aku... orang kesel sama aku... daaaan lainnya. Tapi sebenernya, ketika aku ulik lebih dalam.... mereka gak gitu.

Seseorang yang tadinya aku kira dia benci atau gak suka sama aku, lama-lama... dia baik. Dan pada akhirnya aku tau, kalau emang sifat dia yang agak jutek.

Seseorang yang tadinya aku kira keganggu dengan hadirnya aku.... ternyata, aku salah. Ternyata memang sifat dia yang dingin. Dia dingin bukan karena merasa terganggu.
Dan seseorang yang aku kira kesel sama aku.... ternyata dia kesal sama orang lain. Dan karena sebelumnya kita ada salah pendapat, aku kira dia masih kesal atas hal itu.

Adalah salah sebenernya untuk menyalahi diri sendiri. Salah asumsi itu.... bikin diri kita menyesal. Ngulik kesalahan kita yang sebenarnya gak ada masalah. Yang salah disini otak kita. Negative thinking. Aku yakin, bukan cuman aku yang pernah merasa seperti ini. Mengira-ngira suatu keadaan yang sebenarnya bukan seperti itu kenyataannya.
Aku harap, kalian, para readers, gak akan ngalamin kesalahan yang aku buat. Disini, aku tau, untuk kedepannya, kita harus stay positive. Cause everything is never as it seems. Sebelum berasumsi, telusuri 'kenyataan' lebih dalam.
Aku yakin, kalian gak mau kehilangan orang yang seharusnya tetap ada di sisi kalian. Dan untuk kamu, kamu, kamu, atau kamu lainnya. Bersama postingan ini, aku ucapin maaf sebesar-besarnya.

Tertanda,

Dinda

Bandung, 16 Desember 2012

Taylor Swift - Tell me why

So, kids. 15 love life is truly suck. So, this song is kinda of my situation right know. So, here's for you that have screw my mind. I'm sick of it, so... goodbye :-j

I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground, I see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around

And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?

You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around

Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?

Why do you have to make me feel small
So you can feel whole inside?
Why do you have to put down my dreams
So you're the only thing on my mind?

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around

Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why? Why? Tell me, why?

I take a step back, let you go
I told you I'm not bulletproof
Now you know

Taylor Swift Quotes

Hey, I was downloaded Taylor Swift's Speak Now booklet, months ago, and the 3rd page is talks about 'Speak Now' here's the sentences. I write it without any change:

'Speak now or forever hold your peace,' the words said by preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, a moment that makes everyone's heart race, and a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens.

Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, that most of us start hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.

I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say 'I love you.' When we should've said ' I'm sorry.' When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help.

These songs are made up of words I didn't say when the moment was right in front of me. These songs are open letters. Each is written with a specific person in mind, telling them what I meant to tell them in person. To the beautiful boy whose heart I broke in December. To my first love who I never thought would be my first heartbreak. To my band. To a mean man I used to be afraid of. To a girl who stole something of mine. To someone I forgive for what he said in front of the whole world.

Words can break someone into million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use intentionally hurt someone.

What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk away embarrased, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest.

So say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you'll never send or in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus or resounding voices saying 'I could've, but it's too late now'

There is a time for silence. There is a time waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need tosay, you'll know it.

I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now.

love,

Taylor Swift.

And here's about Fearless

“To me, “FEARLESS” is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. It’s FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. I think it’s FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he’s in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s FEARLESS to stop believing them. It’s FEARLESS to say “you’re NOT sorry”, and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright… That’sFEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That’s why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS.” 

15 love life?

Honestly, I feel weird to write a shit like this now. But there is too much stupid girl like me that hoping for nothing. We're teens. And we thought that love life is the 'must thing to have'. But yet. It suck.

I've heard 'fifteen' song from Taylor Swift. That song is really inspired me to be careful at this age. I was trying as hell to be careful, until I heard 'Mary's Song' from Taylor Swift too. I-Damn-Want-to have a love life like that. So I start to daydreaming, guessing who's that boy that might be my prince charming. 

I keep don't get it, for what is it having a love life at teen. There's just 2 cycles of it, but really complicated. One, the crushing cycle. This is really my cycle -_-. First, you look that boy or girl that really shining. Then, you fall for him or her. And then you have the 'get to know him or her' section. And he or she respond you that well. And secretly, she or he have the 'get to know him or her' section too, BUT with the other person. In parenthesis, Not-With-You. And then he or she is dating to that girl or boy. And you broke. Suck. Two, the dating cycle. First, you got that one you loved finally love you back. Then, the 'love' thing is a temporary thing. You got a conflict. Then fighting. Then broke up. Then falling apart and feel like 'I'd rather to die'. Suck, isn't it?

See? Love life at teens are really complicated. I mean, for what are we doing a thing that just hurt our feeling? And silly me, i keep doing it. I'm a girl that just want to talk to other girl, but with no offense to the boy. Dear girls, there is so much jerks out there. Be careful.

But in other side, there's people who really did a great relationsip at teens. They found a right person for now. But we still don't know what would happen next. I hope it would be fine until they died. Amen.

P.s. I wrote these not because i'm jealous or something, but i want to open those teens eyes that fall over and over again to those boys and then broke over and over again.

Someone said that "the worst thing is not to broke at a relationsip, but the scared to fall in love is". So, i decided to like someone at this age. Not love. We're too young for that thing.

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Knowing I wrote this post is feel awkward right now. I think I'm in love with a boy. Since almost 2 years ago. I've already forgot him, since he's dating my close friend, actually. And then, he's comeback, and I think I like him. All over again. Funny when I think the very first time how I had a crush on him. :))