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I don't know. I'm so confused. I just want to write this. You know what? I just watched glee season 3, marathon. It's all about dream, graduation, college, everything that stuck on my head, lately. That's make me think, 'what should I do now?'. 

Well, yesterday, I stalked someone that worked in google. From my country. Yeah, this country. How cool is it? She's the first person from my country that working on there. Even thought there's google office in my country, but I didn't count it. Then, I stalk her experience, education, what things that she's been throught.... Then I got it that she got scholarship for college until she got Magister on Japan. She was from a great high school in Jakarta. Then there she go. The google thing.

Then I searched some of informations about scholarship. Well, those scholarship didn't put requirements that you must won some of competitions, BUT. Most of complainants posted that they were winning some kind of competitions. That's make me... a 'lil bit pessimist. Ya see, I don't have any of extraculicular on school. I haven't win any of competition. I feel like nothing. Yeah, at least I got grade on my report. I even got A Charter from it. Well, I should've got 2, but my old school just made 1, for the last semester of the year. So, uhm...

Don't ya think I think about this all just because my 'stalk-result-from-the-internet'. My cousin told me that her friend got scholarship for 4 years in a college. She told me, because her friend's going to a college with an IT subject that I want. And guess what? He, that is my cousin's friend, was a head of OSIS. So that might be true that those scholarship see how active you are on school.

Let's face it, in this country, there just 1 college as far as I know, that had an International Standard. Which I want to go there. And the college is still on my town. But, ya know what? It wasn't cheap. Well, even though the college said that they were never pull out the colleger just because financial issue. But still, that's all mean, I need scholarship.

So, here's the deal. You want to go to a great great workplace,  that's mean, you must go to a great college. And to go to a great college, you could go there with money if you're rich enough. Or, you must find a scholarship. And most of scholarship need that active on high school thing. So, maybe this is the time I must start. Even though I still don't know what kind of extra that I'll take....